TRIPPLE SEVENS

2010-02-11T04:19:00.000-08:00

Blame me for loving you too much
I hate liars serious
Right now I don't really care much anymore
I realize the more I care , the more hurt I'll get
I'm tired of trying or even tired of giving in
Actually I do sense tht everything's falling apart
Whatever k , right now I don't even feel like doing anything
Neither do I wanna make things worst
I'll let you lead the life you always wanted to have
I'll wash my hands off now , really
I'm sorry for being too strict with you all these while
Fear not , now I'm returning you everything back
I don't wanna try anymore .
It's time I move on .
Bai

2010-02-08T23:11:00.001-08:00

It's been so long since i last blogged , been busy all these while .
K , i promise i'll be back here soon .
Alright , off to meet jeeling honey naoz .
Bai .

2009-12-18T07:22:00.000-08:00

I'm extremely happy to the max to see my babies today .
Sushi date is mad love .
6more days before my babies come over my house to sleeeeep (!)
WHOA , MAD LOVE .
Today was totally awesome i swear .
I miss Yifang , sim & jia xuan .
Shall meet them sooooooooooooooooon .
hehez, did nails for laura baby , mad chio .
Am going off to facebook naozzzz .
Bai ^^

2009-12-17T09:42:00.000-08:00

Get your fucking attitude right , girl .

2009-12-16T08:15:00.000-08:00

Hey guys , I'm back .
This time round with good news .
HAHA , thanks for the concern for the past few days .
Things are getting much better naoz & I'm happy .
I've got a lil post for my baby boy today .

I know i'm sort of stubbon & ridiculous at times .
Sorry baby , I know you've been trying your best to make me happy .
I know you will tolerate all nonsense tht i gave .
I know you'll give your very very best to me .
I know , you had never never stop loving me although i kept making you angry .
I even know tht i do play an impt role in your life .
All these , I know right from the very start .
I know i've gotta appreciate you .
Baby boy , I promise you k , I will try to control my attitude .
You know tht no matter what happenes ,
I will never stop loving you for i see you as my sunshine .
You will never be replace by anybody , i swear no .
I'm sorry baby for all those nonsense i gave you past few days .
I'm glad tht you understand me so well ,
and most importantly , I'm indeed very very very happy tht no matter what ,
You'll never say you dont love anymore .
I swear you're the best I've ever own .
I wont let you down , neither will i give this r/s up .
I'll keep this going , be it 20-30 years down the road .
K , i'll cut this short .
Baby , you know tht I'll love you always (!)
hehe , k hope this do makes my baby boy happier naoz .

Alright , i gotta go dry my hair for i just reached home .
Naoz it's already 12.30am .
I needa work tmrw .
& I'm happy tht i met bay boy today .
Oh wells , i'll update if i have the time to do so .
Goodnight (!)

2009-12-14T08:23:00.000-08:00

I feel really upset , my heart really hurts
I don't know why , it's been 3 days. . .
1. Her .
2. Failed to meet me
3. Sushi .
3 days , 3 disappointment.

How many more to go? It's hard for me to go on
Having to feel happy like before . I cannot , really.
This is like worst than gg to hell
I need a space to breathe.
I need you like once
You neglected me for 3 days
You value them more than me.
K , I'm really so upset to the extend tht I feel like crying.
You know you know?
Haven't I love you enough? I did . I really did.
K , I guess i've gave in too much
You always break your promises . Why?
Maybe I'm not good enough , am I?
Naoz I feel like everything's not right
I shouldn't even be yours in the 1st place
If 2 years ago , we really parted ,
Will we happier today?
I'm motherfucking down I swear

2009-12-13T04:36:00.000-08:00

I'm not happy , that's why i'm here blogging .

I'm not gonna say much nor share anything .

I'm just in a plain fucked up mood naoz .

I dont know why .

My whole day was ruin early in the morning with jz a phone call .

How niase to start my day .

I arent happy for the whole day and thus trying to keep myself busy .

I know it's been so long ever since tht incident .

I just dont know why i cannot seemed to forget it .

I dont know how i should put it across to you either .

Thus , i think sometimes it's best to keep to myself instead .

I got nothing much more to say because you can go ahead and say I'm jealous or whateverso .

I dont care for i dont see a reason why i should care so much naoz .

Naoz , i gave you half of my heart cuz if i gave you one ,

I'll end up disappointed .

I dont know why I'm selfish . Maybe tht's love .

I dont know whether or not I've picked the right decision 2 years back .

Naoz , it'll take me longer to forget tht incident .

Naoz i finally understand what's one bitten twice shy .

I am really afraid history will repeat itself ,

but then , til noaz i'll just continue to do my part .

Who knows what might happened next?

Whatever it is , I'm upset & i'm serious .

When i say i'm upset or whateverso to you , I meant it from my bottom of heart ,

K you wont be reading also , no point writing so much .

Anyway , I'm tired for so long so long .

Sometimes i wish i could give you up but ,

come to think of it , it's not easy for us to come thus far .

K bai

2009-12-05T10:41:00.000-08:00

I've got so much to rant about .
Wells , am not gonna spoil my mood
I don't talk to losers for I see no point in talking to them
Babe , materialistic won't get you far
You choose to give us up, well done
5 years to you may seemed like peanuts
But I don't think so for I do cherish you much
Wells , I can't change the fact tht you choose to leave us
I wish you well. .

2009-12-03T06:47:00.001-08:00

K , finally i'm free to update this lil space over here .
I'm totally worn out by my work , like totally .
it's another 3 more days to freedom (!(
I'll get to see my six precious babies & husband .
K , gonna play like mad .
Right naoz , I'm extremely tired .
Dad bought me nail pieces , like love only .
Fucking chio i swear .
It's hard for me to decide which to put on .
Niase , I love all the nail pieces .
K , am gonna paint my nails on sat & meeting them on sun morning .
Fucking excited .
am going to hit facebook naoz .
Bai ,

2009-11-29T03:56:00.000-08:00

I am super cui for these few days .
I intensive working , gan sleepy naoz .
k , tmr working night .
Baby popping over my housy tmrw morning .
Dislike stupid teo for playing mahjong these few days .
Gonna whack him tmrw i dont care .
K , naoz gonna rest my bloody leg cuz gan suan .
7 more days my six babies .
Til then .

2009-11-25T08:02:00.000-08:00

It's been some time since l last blogged
Oh wells . I'm currently busy with work.
I've no time for any blogging or whateverso
But then , I do check in facebook as it's more convenient.
Kkaz in short , I won't be blogging often as I do not have the time to do so.
However , I'll try my best to squeeze out time to blog kkaz

Alright , ytd was steamboat with my friends & brother
I like the food there somehow hehe
Kkaz , had fun off course
Reached home @ about 11.30pm .
Tmrw I'm not working , sales goes for baby teo.
This means , baby teo's popping over tmrw morning
& I get my breakfast again , hehez
Kkaz , I miss baby teo for I last saw him was on Monday
Gonna cuddle under baby teo's arms tmrw
I hope to go shopping soon but meanwhile ,
I gotta start saving up for I spent a bomb this month :(
Kkaz , 11 more days to the 29th & chalet .
I love baby teo & my 6 lovely babies ^^
Kkkaz , I'm turning in naoz
Stupid teo's not replying my text mainly becuz he's busy watching tv :/
Oh wells , gonna deal with him tmrw
Goodnight!

Psps: naoz I realize work is always 1st in your mind , forget it.

2009-11-20T06:42:00.000-08:00

I feel sad yet I don't know what's wrong
I had this feeling inside me which made me feel terrible
I yearn for someone to share my sorrows with ,
I yearn for someone to actually care & asked ,
" why are you so sad? Are you ok? "
I yearn for some concern which I guess could make me feel better

I hate it when I'm being ignored at times
I hate guys to put their energy all on their games instead of girlf
I dislike it most when you're so into games til you forgotten all about me
I really really dislike it when I'm moody yet you aren't there
But I don't blame you cuz I don't know why am I fucking feeling this way either
Even if you've asked me earlier on, I'll Jz pretend I'm fine.
I think I needa good sleep for I think I'm gonna turn insane if this continues
& the worst thing ever is I gotta wake up @ 6.30am tmrw to prepare for work
In a nutshell , I'm not feeling happy at all today & I don't know why either
K , gonna force myself to sleeep naoz
Hai

2009-11-14T18:28:00.001-08:00

STEAMMMMMMMMMBOATTTTTT AFTERWARDS (!)
I Lovezxzxzx my 6 girlsssssss .
See you afterwards girlsssss& baby boy ^^

2009-11-11T20:02:00.000-08:00

FINALLY FREEEEEDOM (!)
haha , phew .
Got my hair done with jee ling baby ytd .
Ytd night was the sex .
Seriously , it's my happiest day in my life .
haha , totally can get my butts out of sec school .
Kkaz , work starts today .
I am working towards my goal .
Will be back to blog when i'm freee .
3 more days to steamboat , shiok !
kkaz . gonna rebond my hair next week w jee ling baby toooooo (!)
heeez , dad sponsor , awesomeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !
280 bucks goneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee . heeeeeeeeee .
I love my dad (!)
Kkaz , gonna go facebook naoz.
Bai

2009-11-10T01:23:00.000-08:00

TMRW IS FREEDOM DAY (!)

Finally after 5 years of struggling , I've made it till today .

I'm infact quite happy cuz i know i did my best for every single paper .

I'll die with no regrets . heeez

I reckon i can score high like fuck for every subject .

But POA is so far my most confident subject tht i can ace it .

Nevertheless , i hope i can get somewhere .

Best with all my girls , heeez .

Baby jz left my house , I'm down right sleeepy nao .

Am going to sleep soon & 40 balls waiting for me tmrw .

YES (!) Dating baby jee ling @ 5pm right after.

Kkaz , work resume on thurs & whooo , $$$$

3 more weeks to our chalet & 5 more days steamboatttt .

heheeez . I love my life nao (!)

Btw , gotta plan things i needa get this whole month .

1 . Omnia pro .

2 . A lappy .

Alright , these 2 are the main things i'm gonna get this month .

K , til here . Bai

2009-11-06T00:32:00.001-08:00

In another 4 hours time , I'll get to see baby .
I seriously keep having the thinking tht O's so over .
aww , chinese paper tmrw & mcq on wed .
I'll end my fate aft this weeeeeek .
Off to work straight after , heeez .
K , looking forward to the chalet w my babies .
Steamboat on sunday with you babies too .
heehe , I love my girls very very much .
cuz we finally know who shouldnt be with us in the very 1st place .
Anyway , hope baby dont oversleeeeep afterwards .
Dad's cooking nao . hehehe .
I shall blog till here . Bai

2009-11-06T00:32:00.000-08:00

Nao baby & brother's sleeping tgt in my room .

I feel so bored currently .

Finished playing baby's pet society .

hehe , i love his pet ttm .

Yay , I'll be off to town with baby boy tmrw .

Oh wells , speaking about tmrw ,

It marks the day of our 28th anniversary .

Speaking about this , I felt tht time flies so fast .

In a blink of an eye , we've been tgt for 2 years 4 months .

It's tedious for a r/s to go so far .

But i've been glad tht all this while , baby boy had been such a gem .

K , not gonna praise him tht much in case he gets yaya again . HAHA .

To sum everything up , I love bebe ttm .

K , update more when i'm freeeee.

& nao i've the feeling tht O had finished ~

hehe , bye

PSPS ; Happy 28th anniversary lil gem ^^

2009-11-04T21:11:00.000-08:00

FREEDOM IN A FEW DAYS TIME !
K , finally got the time and strength to update this blog .
Big fat O's are finallly coming to an end .
I am fucking happy cuz i am free after 5 years in sec school life .
I dont know whether i'll miss tht school .
But one thing for sure is , I do miss my babies .
Oh wells , speaking about how each paper is , I think overall is still manageable .
I love POA , I will ace it this time round ^^
K , not to be too happy yet .
I think i've done my very best for every paper , including my history for my entire 5 years .
I dont know if my combined humanities will fair well or not .
Cuz i am confident of ss but not history .
Nevertheless , I'm only left w chinese paper & combined sci mcq ^^
K , That's all for now .
Am gg to bath already , raining cats & dogs ~~
2 more days to the 28th anniversary . Love you teo baby .
K bye

2009-10-21T07:44:00.000-07:00

BEST OF LUCK MY 7 BABIES (L)
Tmr marks the day of O's .
We carry our aims w us , we'll fight this through as one .
Babies , love each of you as much .
Goodnight .

2009-10-20T04:32:00.000-07:00

Happy birthday laura baby .
K , off for QA nowww
Wish me luck on thurs .
Bye

2009-10-16T08:07:00.000-07:00

Awesome friday spent .

Baby pop by my house early in the morning .

Accompanied brother to kovan for job interview .

Managed to finish my chem today somehow .

Still , i need more practice .

I'll be seeing baby boy , zijun baby & jia xuan baby tmr .

K , 6 more days .

I will give my best shot this last lap ^^

K ,update more when i'm free .

Goodnight!

PSPS ; all the best babies! MUG HARD , remember our aims ^^

2009-10-14T05:43:00.001-07:00

I'm currently having a fever , sore throat & flu .
Nevertheless , I'll still be off to school tmr afternoon .
Glad tht baby boy's been by my side all this while .
I feel happy today because i did chem .
I promised , in 8 days time , I'll sit for every paper confidently .
K , off to rest nowwww .

PSPS ; Why i say jump , you say? :)

2009-10-13T03:22:00.000-07:00

I'm addicted to my blog 1st song .
Awesome ^^
K , spent today w bebe as usual .
Home > Hougang mall > home
Managed to meet my 3 babies by luck @ hougang mall .
K , now i think i've got sore throat .
Time to study , will be more active in facebook .
Anyway , I wanna get omina pro .
I'll get it by this month .
K , update more tmr .

PSPS ; What a joke , You're beyond cure like seriously .

2009-10-12T05:19:00.000-07:00

Study break starts today :)
Glad tht i'll have sufficent time studying at home
Got to meet bebe every day as he'll be coming up my hse daily
Today was awesome
Brother N lvls had ended today
O's approaching , urgh
K , i gotta get my butts off my com & study nowwww
Bye

Ps:/ you highly make yourself look cheap like seriously
I didnt knw u're so desperate btw . Awwww shame on you .

2009-10-11T05:04:00.000-07:00

I always say tht i dont care , actually i cares .

I always say i dont miss you , actually i do .

I always pretend as if you're not impt , actually you're impt to me .

I always say you're a jerk , actually you're the best in my eyes .

I always say you're dumb/silly , actually you're smart in my eyes .

I always say you're not cute , actually you're in my eyes .

I always say i dont like you , actually i do .

I always say i dont love you , actually i do & i really really do .

Til now , i'm not trying to say i dont trust you .

Sometimes i thought back how things used to be , i couldnt help but to feel afraid .

I'm afraid one day , i woke up , you're nowhere to be found .

I'm afraid you'll slip through my hands .

I'm afraid i'm not good enough for you .

I'm afraid , so afraid things will repeat again .

Sometimes i really feel insecure , i dont deny .

It's my fault for not being able to trust you fully .

But then , I hope time could heal everything .

How i wish i could tell you all this face-face .

But then , i wont have the courage to do so .

Baby , i dont know how can i prove my love towards you anymore ,

But i think i really love you more than i could .

I want you to know , I'll never wanna part with you .

I promise i'll love you til the day you love me no more .

K , i love you teo sen .

PSPS;/ sometimes i feel like embracing in your arms , it makes me feel better somehow .

2009-10-10T02:00:00.000-07:00

The EIGHT of us , every single one of us , do have our own aims and dreams .

For this remaining 12 days , each and every single one of us will do our very best .

12 days , we gotta make full use of it .

Revision all the way , hang on babies .

You babies know tht it's for your own good .

3 more months , we'll be back ^^

Hopefully , we'll succeed .

I know it's tedious . The eight of us , we'll beat as one .

Strive for the very best , we'll make it .

See you babies soon & i love each and every one of you much .

Study hard , we'll do everyone proud :)

K , off for chem ~

PSPS ;/ we'll slap you right onto your face w aces \m/

2009-10-09T03:42:00.000-07:00

Today was more than awesome .

I spent this lovely friday with baby boy .

K , i'll see him in another 3 days time .

So within this 3 days , i am going to finish mugging my sciences and POA .

K , i gotta buck up nowwwwww .

Will update more if possible .

Love you peopleeeeee ! ^^

PSPS;/ We'll be back in 3 months time , we'll beat you flat ^^

2009-10-08T04:23:00.001-07:00

Have you been noticing that i'm just pretending to be happy lately?

I dont know why either .

I guess i've some troubles/problems inside me which i would never like to be shared .

Not even my babies .

I''m sorry babies , this time i'll be selfish .

I need some happy pills to make me happy like before.

I miss times like 2 years back .

I wish we will stay til the end , always as one .

Til then , I love my 7 babies & baby boy .

K will update more when I'm feeling much happier .

Bye

PS;/ I will never CHEAPEN myself , got me?

2009-10-06T22:34:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 27TH ANNIVERSARY BEBE!

It seemed so long tht i've been a part of you .

This 27 months , you never failed to shower me with your love .

You pamper and dote me like nobody business .

You were there when i needed you most .

Although we do quarrel at times due to stupid reasons ,

We made it through each and every single obstacles.

I thanked god sincerely for allowing me to own such a nice boyf .

I never regretted being yours nor regretted anything .

I'm looking foward to many anniversaries w you .

Remember , nothing is impossible .

We have the ablity to make things work .

I love you deeply .

Your girlf , May

2009-10-06T01:33:00.000-07:00

Finally some pictures . The rest is still w shi ting .

Wells , Life's great for us .

K , will update soon again .

Bye ~

PSPS ;/ Can you spot the difference in the pictures?

2009-10-05T03:53:00.000-07:00

17 days to first O level paper .

2 more days to 27th anniversary .

Time passes so fast this whole year .
I cant wait to get out of xinmin secondary ( for particular reason )
Yes , gonna make this last lap a successful one .
I am currently busy w school life , mugging and stuffs.
Will be back to update a proper post when I finish everything .
K , bebe's at home now .
Am gg to rest my eyes now as it's sort of swollen .
K , bye

PSPS ; When one refuses to admit his/her mistakes , tht's a real loser in life .

2009-10-03T08:33:00.000-07:00

Buddy & kor kor's best guys on earth
They came down to pick me up frm work &
Bought my fav drink , loveeeeee!
They waited for me to end work and then proceed to have dinner
How nice of them :)
K , i am gg to sleep soon , tmr morning shift
I dont knw whr baby went , nvm
I only know i feel neglected the whole of today
Bt nevertheless , thks buddy and korkor for making my day!
I love you people
K , goodnight

2009-10-02T08:36:00.001-07:00

Happy that baby boy came down to kovan to have lunch w me
Spent 2 hour plus w him , more than fabulous
Anyway , it's so near to o's!
Damn , gonna mug hard like cow
K , i am very happy these few days
But still , some things i jz couldnt get up my mind because ,
I still find it confusing ,
I would strongly wanna know why are we always wrong?
It's like wverything we mentioned are facts
I swear upon my life , i'll not lie
Really , i dont know how i can put this across
But still , it's getting the nerves out of me.
I'm not even doing anythin this 2 weeks
I need to clear some facts man
Gonna bitch w mom soon ,
It's like wah ... You can nv imagine how harsh human can get
It's true , indeed
Tht's why mom always told me , good ppl die sooner
Looks like i needa be evil right? Seems so
But whatever it is , i've got to make this clear and straight into your mind
I am not even doing anything against you , never for this whole week,
So i would sincerely like you to do the same either
This is best for us , for sure
K , goodnight

2009-09-30T02:23:00.000-07:00

Will be very busy this few days/weeks .
Big O's coming in about less than 3 weeks .
Am so gonna make it through this last lap , i promise .
Now i gotta wait for mom to cook me dinner .
Meanwhile , I'm off for nap .
Shall see baby boy next week if i'm not wrong .
Yeah , busy w studies = neglected baby boy .
Oh wells , endure for another 2 more months!
K , shi ting baby still haven send me those pics yet .
Shall wait then , k off to sleeeep
oh yes , one last thing ,
i'm active in facebook ^^
K , see you there . bye

2009-09-28T03:40:00.000-07:00

My babies still haven send me all the pictures.
Am going to wait then :(
Meanwhile , I'm happy for sim baby .
Happy 17th birthday baby girl .
I love you with my bottom of heart .
K , I met bebe aft school for a short while .
shall see him tmr then ,
k , will update soon .

2009-09-27T06:38:00.000-07:00

I think i've sore eyes
Haha , or maybe i wore my contacts for too long
Oh wells , hope it recover soon!
Tmr's monday again , suckish
K , off to bed to rest
Will update soon
Will be busy the following weeks
K bye

2009-09-26T07:55:00.000-07:00

Tonight was awesome
Babies were fantastic , baby boy too
Birthday babies are extremely happy
I'm glad they enjoyed everything .
K , love them much seriously
Pictures to update soon when babies send me tmr
& silly boy is way too adorable tonight
Knew his secret and god damn i almost broke into tears
I'm seriously touched. Nothing can describe how i was feeling tht very moment
For sure i know one thing , tht is i found a guy who i can depend on in the future
And a guy who loves me so much for everything i did
I seriously cannot ask for more , i'm glad to found him
To sum everything up , i'm a happy girl because ,
I've 7 wonderful babies and a awesome boyf
K , gonna turn in soon as i'm working tmr morning
Damn tired , goodnight!

2009-09-25T09:33:00.000-07:00

Tmr's the day! :)
We had been looking damn forward to it
Hehe , many fun and pics to upload tmr night if possible
How cool seriously , super love the girls
I dare to say each and every one of us in our clique is truly happy
Yes ^^
K, am gg to turn in now as baby boy had alr slept
Goodnight

2009-09-24T06:00:00.000-07:00

" Stalin is well known for his ruthless personality "
Are you the same as Stalin? :)

I'm happy , damn happy,
Looking forward to this sat .
Let's see what happens , oh wells .
Stay tuned for more updates.
Will update a proper one soon , damn busy w studies.
K bye

2009-09-20T04:41:00.003-07:00

I am happy today ( due to some personal reasons)
K , I'll be back for more exciting stories ^^
Meanwhile , gotta plan birthday bash for sim baby this sat
Super headache :(
K , it's raining now . Am gonna bath and sleeeeeeeeeep.
Ultra tired and shag .
Bebe's gonna start his IR training soon i guess.
Kiss goodbye to 3 months as he's away for training .
I dont know if this is a good thing.
whatever it is , baby i wish you the best .
I'll see you probably in jan 2010 then .
K , i'll wait i'll wait , hopefully laaaaaaaaaaaaa :)
Bye

2009-09-20T04:41:00.001-07:00

Ellips really do make your hair smells nice .

Smooth and shiny. Thumbs up ^^

K , work was terrible this few days .

I'm exhausted like mad , gonna catch my sleep earlier tonight .

K , I might be meeting baby tmr .

Will update a proper post soon !!!

Stay tunned , bye

PSPS : I ought to get used to tht feeling .

2009-09-19T06:44:00.000-07:00

As usual , weekends means busy w work
Haha , promise to update a proper post soon
Meanwhile , looks like many people are aware of our conflict
Things seemed to be better for us , like duh
K , not gg to say much
I believe god is fair ^^
bebe went out to flirt , i'm just back hm
Alright , goodnight

2009-09-17T21:39:00.000-07:00

Hehe back frm sch. Bebe sleeping when i reached hm
Luv him much :)
K needa work afterwards. Money timeeee hehe
Nothing much :)

Psps ; god is always fair , you'll have your retribution i swear .)

2009-09-17T01:34:00.000-07:00

Haha , seems like " some people " out there are stalking my blog etc .
Looks like my blog seemed interesting to them i guess .
& I already mentioned ytd , I'm NOT refering to anyone regarding my previous post .
You dont see your name being mentioned , so dont assume or predict .
If you still gets so paranoid over it , i cant help either .
Continue then :)
Anyway , if we people are not guilty , why should we be afraid of what others write about us?
Arent this true? ^^
Oh wells , I am happy with my life nowwwwww especially w/o " YOU " .
I love my six girlfs plus my baby boy ^^
K , waiting for zi jun baby to arrive at my house .
byeeeeee .

PSPS ;/ Your future's ruin in your boy's hands ^^

2009-09-12T06:26:00.000-07:00

Am busy due to heavy work schedules
School's reopening soon,
I'll be seeing favourite boy on monday ^^
k , bye

2009-09-11T09:14:00.000-07:00

Baby i'm sorry for breaking your heart ytd.
I'm sorry for getting so jealous
I apologised for not being a understanding girlf .
K, now it's sunshine after rain.
I hope we've learnt to love each other more
Meanwhile, i'm indeed happy to see you appearing at my workplace to fetch me home
I swear i was more happy than anything elses
K baby , let's walk down the road til we grow old ^^
And this is the answer you've been waiting for :
I love you , no matter how irritating you are.
I'll love you always , i meant it :)
Hope i've mend back your lil heart
I'll see you on monday then
Goodnight :)

Psps:/ thanks to those who showed concern, i'm fine now :)0

2009-09-10T18:38:00.000-07:00

How i wish you'll hug me tight enough to tell me everything's fine .
I wish to feel you beside me .
I wish , for this time round ,
to lend your shoulder to cry on .
I wish, we're strong enough to love.
K , i guess i haven been feeling better since ytd night.
I need my babies w me this time round .

I'm awaiting for my phone to ring
Hopefully , this time round ,
We'll make it through .

baby if you ever chance to read this ,
i wish you'll hug me tight enough to tell me eveything's fine .
K , this seems much impossible nowwww .

PS ;/ It had never never been easy

2009-09-10T06:29:00.000-07:00

Some things are better to be left unsaid .
Now , the fourth thing had happened .
What's the fifth one?
Seriously , I find myself falling soon .
Yes , I'm a failure in love .
I gave up , totally .

It's not about how long we've been together .
No point being tgt for so long yet I'm still feeling this way .
You see , I always get pissed iff over the same thing .
You changed , for a period of time only .
After which , everything came back .
It's kind of upset to see those incidents happening over and over again
I dont know why , It may seemed to be a small stuffs to you ,
Yet it affects me alot .
You can say tht i'm selfish , sensitive , annoying , childish , unreasonable and the list goes on .
I dont care , i really dont .
Because i care for you , i love you so much til i got so hurt today .
This lil stuffs may seemed to be peanuts to you baby ,
But think , I'm a girl .
Who can totally accept such things when she loves you so much?
Alright , It's one's responsiblity to be faithful .
I'm not trying to say you're not .
You have been nice all this while , i swear .
But it's just tht stupid habit of yours tht you gotta change .
I know i cannot expect so much from you .
But just this time round , could you please , let me beg you ,
stop doing those things anymore .
you know what i'm talking about .
You know i hate it , so dont do it .
You may mean no harm by doing those things , but who knows?
Everytime i got so upset , there's only one reason .
You know it yourself .
I've been weak in controlling my emotions .
I can no longer tolerate my tears .
I sat on bus 80 back home , i thought back so much .
Everytime i do reflections , i ended up w watery eyes .
I got off the bus , i walked back home .
I almost drop my tears , i couldnt control .
I reached home w watery eyes .
I went to bath , came out w a pair of swollen red eyes .
I cried badly , thinking about so much things between you and me .
I asked myself , if one day , i were to lose you ..
What will i do? K , enough .
I wish , i wish nothing of these happens again .
I wish, to love you like how i did 1 year back .
I wish , really really wish you'll appreciate what i've did for you all this while .
I wish , you can understand me more .
It may seemed alot to you , i know .
I know i've no rights to ask so much from you either .
K , let things be simple enough .
Gimme some time to think about everything we've been through .
I need time to reflect more .
Meanwhile , I'll grant you your freedom .
I'm sorry baby if i've been too unreasonable .
I'll give everything back to you now .
I'm sorry .

K, screwed the fact tht i cried again .
I once swore tht i'll never cry anymore for a guy
Looks like love is making a fool out of me .
K , if i cannot retrive this love back ,
I promise i'll stay strong and move forward .
Meanwhile , i want you to know ,
although so much things had happened , I've never failed to love you even more .
I swear upon my life , my dear .
K , if you do realise , everytime i'll keep my feelings from you ,
tht is partly because if i put it across to you ,
I'm afraid tht our love will falls .
You get what i mean?
K , i'm tired , it's time to rest .
If i'm seeing you tmr morning , i hope you'll treat me better .
Goodnight

2009-09-08T21:02:00.000-07:00

I am feeling fucking pissed off now .
Dont ask me why , I dont know why either .
Period is getting the nerves out of me .
I am seriously gg die soon .
It's been 2 days , 2 bloody days .
Non-stop , fuck .
I got to keep tolerating the pain , the mess tht is being discharged .
It's fucking irritating i swear .
It's been ages since i last came such a heavy one .
Nice try , this whole hols is so gonna burn .
I dont care , I'm still gg out w bebe & clique tmr .
I'm sorry babies for not going out today .
I know you babies understands the pain i'm gg through .
I promise , another day . This time i hold my words ^^
Love you babies .

Alright , Back to the main point .
I'm getting so pissed off w my period .
There goes my ipod baby being flat .
B's out to dont-know-where .
I feel so fucked up and vexed .
Stupid , how stupid .
I'm alone @ home , nothing to do .
& i came online , lucky my com didnt failed me today .
Or else , I will go mad , for sure .
I slept damn early ytd night , partly because of my period .
I woke up with a backache , a serious one .
I cannot sit for long , it hurts .
I feel like killing myself nowwwwwwww.
How more days to bear with it?
K fuck period .

Nothing's gg right for me this month .
I started sept badly i guess .
1 . Prelims was a disaster .
2 . B forgotten to text me on our anniversary .
3 . Heavy periods .
what's the fourth one? SCREWED .
& now the saddest news ever ,
Bebe just told me tht if he's confirmed to work ,
He needa go overseas for 3 months .
K fuck , worst than army trainings .
Now , you know how excatly i'm feeling now?
Plus heavy period .
Will you kill yourself? YES .
Whatever , i am off to msn & maybe facebook , twitter & keep myself occupied .
I dont feel like talking to anyone nowwww .
Nobody , not a single oneeee .
K , how stupid .
Mom just called , she's the best ^^

No mooooooooooodd , nobody can make me happy .
Yes , nobody :(
K bye

2009-09-08T02:49:00.000-07:00

Knn i having such a heavy period .
I am seriously getting pissed off w it
I cant sleep properly having to worry tht it'll over flow
Ccb one ley , this month so heavy
Yet i needa go out tmr and thurs
Stupid period , how to go out when i'm having such heavy periods?
Super dulan , fuck
I hope it ends tmr or maybe dont let it be so heavy
How stupid. Feel like killing people nowww
Urgh

2009-09-07T04:45:00.000-07:00

Happy 26th anniversary bebe
Looks like time really flies
I had been a happy girl all this while.
Special thanks to beloved bebe
Although he always scold me this few months,
I love him the same , really
To make this short and sweet,
I'll end off with , you had been part of me
I need you in my life , now and in future
You can have nobody but only me
So bebe , stay by me always
Hehe, love love love you
See you tmr morning :)

K , chinese paper was pretty alright today
Tour ard w bebe in the afternoon
Had mos burger, wonderful
Polar and durian puffs are best of the best
I'm packed this whole hols.
So , now i am gg to kiss goodnight and off to bed
K byeeeee

Ps:/ stupid baby

2009-09-05T07:34:00.000-07:00

My 4 sweet babies came down to fetch me home from work
How nice of them :)
Haha , better than my boyf .
I bet he'll kill me if he reads this . Hehe
Anyway , we had heart to heart talks .
I love to talk to them , regarding how i feel and etc.
K , we'll have another outing on wed , vivo .
Time to talk everything under the sun ^^
I love all my babies .

K , baby boy is out to town .
I feel like killing him.
I always lack of confident in our r/s.
I dont know why but at times i tends to feel insecure.
K , i knw i ought to be more confident in my r/s.
Nevertheless , i wont let my r/s falls.
I love baby boy more and more .
Never did i love him a single bit lesser.
Are you reading lil baby? Luv yawwwww
Muacks , 2 more days :)
I'll make the impossible to the possibles.
K , meanwhile , i'll see you on our 26th anniversary
Nights bebe

Ps:/ she suck big time , knn bitch , ka jiao wei .

2009-09-04T08:50:00.000-07:00

Tell me why i'm feeling this way
K , 3 more days to the 26th .
Baby , how long can we last?
Have you asked yourself this question before ?
K , i'll ask you one of these days when i sees you ^^
Goodnight , am busy w life.

Ps:/ i dont feel good at all , really

2009-09-01T18:05:00.000-07:00

I felt freaking contented in B's arms now .
K , i started my day loving enough .
Shall jump onto my bed now .
K bye

Edited :
My bad today , yes again it's me
I apologised.
I dont know why i can no longer control my emotions well .
I teared easily whenever such things happened.
Cb me , k screwed
Now i've got no mood for anything

2009-08-31T02:44:00.000-07:00

Baby boy just left my house for work.
Spent half of my day at home w him.
So much to catch up w each other :)
Attended sch today , totally not worhwhile
K, whatever.

I might not be able to see B tmr .
Shall see whether he's tired or not
Anw , i'm in a shopping mood now.
I need new bags , wallet , clothes , shoes and many more.
This makes me even more wanna go ion .
K , shall go on thurs since baby said so .
Now i'm thinking whether i should go out w my clique to ion tmr?
Urgh , i dont knw , maybe not,
Shall wait til thurs then , k byeeeee

2009-08-30T05:01:00.000-07:00

I'm not used to baby gg to work ,
Urghs i dont knw if it's a good thing or a bad thing.
Oh wells , dread tmr teachers' day celeb.
K , waste of time . Must as well stay at home do revision.
Whatever , am gg to turn up for sch tmr &
Meeting my precious boy after tht .
K , what a day
Bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb , i wanna go flyer soon w baby :)
Seemed like a few more days to the 26th anniversary ^^
Happpppyyyyyy muacksssss

2009-08-29T06:59:00.000-07:00

I'm waiting for B to get to me.
It's been 3 hours already ,
Where are you baby? :(
Stupid , i hate this kind of feeling .
Feeling so fucking empty.
Shall go peep through those photos by my bed,
At least , it'll make me feel better .
K , bye

2009-08-28T16:53:00.000-07:00

Didnt met B for breakfast today.
K , nvm ,
I shall go sleep for another hour before gg work.
K bye

2009-08-28T04:24:00.000-07:00

D&t coursework is finally over .
Finally , i can breathe like normal again
I'm proud of myself for putting in my full effort.
K , i hope for an A2 .

B's at maurice house, irritating,
Haha , i miss you baby
Are you reading? :)
Hehe . I'm hell bored now .
I wish someone could just entertain me though .
K , i didnt went work due to my coursework .
Shall go work tmr then.
K , i'm tired .
Goodnight

2009-08-27T09:39:00.000-07:00

It's 1am now .
I struggled badly for my d&t.
Now , finally it's done .
I'm happy w the way i design my presentation board.
I hope james would praise me tmr , godbless.
Nevertheless , i still hope to ace it :)
K , everyone's sleeping now .
I'm sleep too .
Tmr's maths plus physics and chem mcq.
K , i will fail because i gave up my revision time for d&t
Afterall , it's worthwhile :)

Last but not least , i met my b today.
K , nothing much .
We've so much to talk to each other and i never failed
To love him more each day :)
K , goodnight

2009-08-26T06:36:00.000-07:00

Left with evaluation , exploded drawings and presentation board .
I am confident that i'll get it done by tmr .
I'm indeed happy w my effort in doing my D&T .
Hopefully , i'll ace it this time round .
K , god bless me .

On a happy note , O's english oral was pretty fine today .
How Great , I'm ease now . haha .
K , B's watching tv now ,
I'm off to continue my Journal.
Tmr's chem paper , I know my combined sci cannot make it anymore .
I screwed physics badly .
K , gotta go .
Bye

PS ;/see you tmr bb .

2009-08-25T05:57:00.000-07:00

I finally see hope for my d&t.
I'm almost done w everything,
Finally i can feel ease a lil bit .
K , i'm left w presentation boards and drawings.
Deadline due this friday , how nice.

K , boyf came over this morning at 7am.
I left for school , he stayed at my house .
Home at 3 plus and lunch w him .
I kind of love this way of life because i felt as though he's my husband already.
Haha , k joking.
Let's pray hard that he'll stay faithful to me and i promise ,
I'll stick w him through thick and thin :)
K , to sum it up , i love him more than anyone elses on earth

Oh wells , maths paper today.
It's easier than mid years but still ,
It's hard .
To sum it up , i will still fail for sure
K , maths's one of my weakest.
Tmr's poa paper one , i dare not pin any
Hopes cos i screwed my paper two.
Looks like nothing's gg fine for me
Alright , tmr marks the day of my english o's oral.
I am nervous an let's hope i ace it,
K , may god bless me tmr .
I needa rush my journal , bye

2009-08-24T07:53:00.000-07:00

I'm in the midst of struggling for my d&t.
However, it's my 1st time in my entire sec school life ,
I found hope for my coursework :)
I still got journal and presentation to struggle .
K , i aim to get everything done latest by thurs,
I'll meet B tmr , k nice
I am doom for tmr's maths paper ,
k goodnight . super tired

2009-08-22T07:48:00.000-07:00

Souel garden was more than fantastic.
However , i'm not very happy to the extreme
Nevertheless , i love you baby for everything.
K , B's not replying me
I'm tired , goodnight

Ps:/ i realise i'm weak in love

2009-08-21T00:24:00.000-07:00

I gave in my upmost effort for history paper today .
This was the first time in my entire secondary life ,
I studied so hard for history .
Whether I fair well or not , I'm happy tht i did that paper with my whole heart .
Hopefully , I dont disappoint Mr . Pah again .
Oh well , things on the other side dosen't seemed to turn out nice for me .
But nevertheless , I completed my Physics paper .
Physics i would just like to say , I dont know if it's easy or hard .
Partly because i didnt studied as i used the time for my history revision .
I am sure i've screwed my physics paper today . How nice .
Now , I gotta put in my upmost effort in chem .
K , monday is english paper 2 and POA .
I think I got to study POA soon .

B's sleeping now when th time shows 3.30pm . hehe
Like a pig .
Seoul Garden tmr w him , hopefully .
I got work tmr , I gotta think of how not to be present .
K , tonight is bong bong bong shift . Cui-ed .
K , off for bath , bye

2009-08-20T05:52:00.000-07:00

I guess i gave my best shot for today's english and ss paper .
My efforts paid off for ss . I know i'll do well in SEQ.
How nice , i wish i'll do the same for o's too.
I studied history today only , i gave mr pah's my word .
I'll pass history this time round .
Currently , i'm resting my brain for i've used it for 3 hours straight.
I'll continue aft blogging , just abit more to go.
Hopefully , it'll come out for tmr's paper .
I'm so exhausted now . Brain dead .
K , i met dearest boy today
Love him to bits and pieces .
Not to forget , get well soon baby :)
K , i think i ought to continue my revision
Love you people

2009-08-19T05:10:00.000-07:00

It's time i woke up & i'm trying hard now .
It strikes me down w a B4 today .
Obviously , I'll be re-taking the paper .
I swear i'll do better in all subjects .
K , i've got to push myself even more now .
Tmr marks the day of prelims . How nice .
I'm well prepared for social studies .
K , off for Physics .

I've no more time to waste ,
& i will beat you down at the end of the year .
I gave myself this target .
K good. At least , now i'm more constant in my studies.

2009-08-18T04:44:00.000-07:00

Intensive studying for 2 hours plus
Brain stopped working right after .
All i have up on my mind now is transnational terrorism .
How nice , i just completed memorising one essay in this 2 hour plus
It's tedious memorising , i swear it's killing me straight
I've got one more essay to go
I got to complete my social studies today .
History tmr , i hope i'll manage all subjects well enough .
Guess i've been enlighten by my principal speech this morning
Oh wells , tmr i'll be getting back my chinese o results.
I pin no more hope in getting an ace .
I think i ought to feel glad if i've got a B3 instead
K , i wont blog much either
Shall go memorise my 2nd essay already .
Love you people

Ps:/ i feel empty right now

2009-08-17T05:48:00.000-07:00

Give in? Over my dead body .

I'm super exhausted today .
Stayed back for D&T til 5.30pm . How nice .
I'm glad tht i'm gonna complete in soon .
Thumbs up , way to go for journal & presentation board .
Had class photo taken today , well done!
I have with me my 4 gems , laura , shi ting , jee ling & zi jun babies .
They're wonderful , i meant right from the bottom of my heart .
Alright , 3 more days to prelims .
Off to study mood , chiong already .
& to sum everything up , everyday is nice because i've my gems w me in school . hehe
tmr can meet B already :)
Double happinies , haha
K bye

2009-08-16T04:42:00.000-07:00

4 more days to prelims,
Frankly speaking , i'm not ready for it .
Tmr's monday again , am not able to meet B til wed til wed i guess .
It's time to work hard towards my ace :)
K , bye

Ps:/ why should i give in to you? Dream on :)

2009-08-15T08:29:00.000-07:00

I love the way i embrace myself in B's arms .
I felt so blessed w each of his hugs .
It's a total comfort , i swear .
I know i couldn't live w/o him this time round .
How nice , i wish everything could last .
& Again , i'm more than willing to spend my another half lifetime w him .
He may not be the best looking man on earth , not the best man in the whole universe ,
Yet in my eyes , he'll always be tht lil sweetest , handsome , caring man .
I know nothing can use to describe how much this man had made my life wonderful .
I can only say , at this point of time at least ,
being together for 25 months , I had never once love him a single bit lesser .
I swear upon my life , I'll never live with anyone elses except you , mr teo sen .
I know someday or maybe today , You'll come across this post .
Oh wells , I know i've succeeded melting your lil heart . hehe .
Lastly , You better dont stop loving me alright!
You know how much you stands in my heart , i love you baby .

I'm indeed very very very happy today .
Am super blessed and contented w life .
I hope everyday would be today :)
& before i forget this super important thing ,
My beloved man caught me 6 sweet lil toys for me @ arcade.
Am impressed w B's potential of catching lil toys .
Shall make him go next week too , haha .
Will upload photos soon . Am lazy . Pardon me .
Video B while he's playing my ipod baby .
He's more than extreme cute , he made me day & i laughed hard whenever i sees tht video .
To sum everything up , My life now revolves around only w my man .
Followed by , shi ting , cassandra sim , Jee ling , Yi fang , Zi jun , Laura .
I've fully mentioned all the names , no doubts .
I dont need anything elses :)
Am super deadbeat now . Turning in soon aft i msged my B .
Work tmr , dread .
K goodnight

PS ;/ If only i had a wish , i wish i'll marry you now :)

2009-08-14T18:34:00.000-07:00

Sisters no hard feelings .
However , you choose it th way it is now.

I'm gonna make this clear to you right now.
Dont assume things before you know the facts.
I aren't refering to you about the status in my facebook.
So what's wrong with you by asuming or should i say it's accusing me
Of writting about you?
Hello , i alsi want to make this super clear to you too,
I dont own you anything at all ,
So you dont give me those attitude of yours .
I apologised i'm not those who can tolerate your attitude.
Dont think i'll be so nice enough to give in .
Why should i Give in to you? Why sounds as if it' my fault now huh?
You were also at fault right at the begining when everything happened.
Why cant you just face th fact tht you're also at wrong?
You're always liddat , you expect ppl to please you , pamper you ...
As mentioned , sorry i'm unable to.

I'm not trying to be mean here or whateverso,
You can argue w me , go on .
I'll be more than willing to entertain you ,
With the current attitude of yours now ,
I doubt anyone can stands it , seriously.
I dont care if you'll be back with us .
I dont give a piece of shit too .
It's nothing big deal losing you as a friend either .
Let me give u a piece of advice ,
Change tht sucky attitude of yours first .

Oh wells, i dont want to say much here too .
Oh yes , you said u're jealous of me and shi ting .
How fantastic !
I helped her because she admits her mistakes,
Did you? Or should i even put it across tht you dont even know your mistakes?
Alright , i am feeling much better by posting out.
And last but not least , bear this in mind ,
I am your friend , i am not your enermy or whateverso ,
I dont own you anything right from the start ,
If you're just trying to find faults w me,
I'll be more than willing to entertain you.
But then, dont try to push your luck .

Ps;/ why because of you we've to put down the whole forest?
How stupid arent it ?

2009-08-13T05:16:00.000-07:00

Had a real interesting day today .
Not because i did any revisions , but instead ,
I get to see happening stuffs?
Actually , it's nothing big deal .
I get to see how friends fight/ should i put it across as quarrel?
Some sort of arguement la .
I , myself is neutral . But still , I believe everyone does has his/her reasons for everything.
But then , attitude is still a factor tht is needed to be considered .
I can say that , if today the thing were to happen on me ,
I'll reason things out nicely . I meant talk whatever i'm unhappy about .
But then , since things are over now? I assume .
K , sisters no hard feelings .
I love both of you the same ^^
Both my daughters , I can understand how both of you feels .
I hope things turn out better tmr :)
Love yawww both . Obviously not forgetting my other girls . hahaa

Oh wells , B scolded me for not studying . Nice one .
I am speechless because i'm useless .
I didnt study hard , i dont know how .
I feel like sleeping and shutting myself off whenever i see books .
Kill me somebody .
The damn thing is , i forgot to bring my keys & thus ,
i ended waiting for my lil nice brother to bring me home .
How nice of him to fetch me back from mac w zi jun baby .
Indeed , he's nice at times ^^
K , i'm done w B's pet society , nicely done .
Hope he dosen kills me tmr .
Am happy because mdm yeo said i've done well in ss .
Good , nice motivation for me at least .
Off to study awhileeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .
K bye

2009-08-11T04:09:00.000-07:00

Disappointed w myself today .?
I didnt revise any of my subjects. I'm doom i swear .
I am lack of motivation i admit . Apart from that, i'm also lazy .
This feeling inside me kills.
I yearn so much for an ace, yet 'm doing practically nothing.
Tell me how can i make myself study ?
I swear i'm seriously doom this time round .

On a happier note, i get to see my bebe today :)
Sort of content w life each time i sees him , haha
Oh wells , i'll be seeing him on friday if possible
School's tedious for the remaining two months.
I dread attending lessons. Damn
I've got a long day in school tmr ,
Til 5.15pm , how great
K , i'm totally worn out already .
Bye

Ps;/ if only one is faithful ......

2009-08-10T06:51:00.000-07:00

Well day spent w B & co.
I burnt my revision time away as mentioned.
Tmr i'll get to see B also . Great!
meanwhile , i should start my revisions :(
Hopefully i dont need to retake my chinese .
God bless me

Alright , tmr's school again .
Dread the fact .
B's bathing now & it's time for my beauty sleep :)

Ps:/ i always believe trust is built over time

2009-08-09T06:39:00.000-07:00

I dont know why i'm feeling so uneasy either .
This feeling arent good at all .
Oh well , i just burnt my day away tmr because
I'll be out w B for movie date .
Alright , off to bed goodnight

2009-08-07T09:48:00.000-07:00

Knn , i got runny nose suddenly.
I'm lyinh on my bed using my ipod baby to blog ,
Finally i got back my ipod baby from my boyf . Haha
A well spent day today and not to forget ,
Happy 25th anniversary baby !
Akucintakau , goodnight!
I'll see you soon :)

2009-08-06T06:30:00.000-07:00

My brother's studying hard yet I'm sleeping my time away .
However . I'm a lil pleased with myself tht i managed to finish some revision for my POA today .
I've got 7 subjects , D&T is half-way done .
I dont wish to re-take my mother tongue .
Let's put everything nicely , I'll be left with 6 subjects .
I'm left with 79 days to O's .
6 subjects to be revised during this 79 days .
That is equals to , around 13 days for each subjects .
I dread studying , I kept closing my eyes whenever i sees long pages to study .
I know this cannot go on . I need to mug hard for this remaining days .
For god sake , I know if this carrys on , I'll end up nowhere .
So i've came to a conclusion tht ,
I'll start my intensive mugging on monday , which is the national day .
Oh well , just hope tht i dont get off track .

Meanwhile , on a happy note , tmr's th 7th again .
Yes , indeed time flies like nobody business .
I've been busy with life almost everyday .
Study time had taken away my time for B .
Nevertheless , this had never change the fact tht we do love each other very much .
I hope this continues , 2 more months B .
I'll be back for you after that , i give you my word .
I'm glad i'll be seeing you tmr , Great!
As usual , let's see who'll lose during 12 midnight today .
I'll make this short and sweet here .
I love you from my bottom of heart :)

PSPS ; I'm happy today !

2009-08-03T04:52:00.000-07:00

All i can think of now is , my beloved baby .
I cannot concentrate on anything elses . This is bad .
I'll see my boy on this upcoming wednesday .
Hopefully , I'll see him on this upcoming friday too .
I am desperate to finish my D&T coursework plus everything .
School life's bad for me , dread .
83 more days to go , hang on .
K bye

2009-08-02T05:20:00.000-07:00

I lost my right eye contact lens today ,

i wore my spec to work , what a joke .

Today is an un-lucky day for me , how nice .

On a happier note , i bought new contacts .

i love the colours , Oh great!

I spent 71 bucks just on contacts today .

In total , i think i've spent 100 bucks today .

I think i should stop spending & start saving already .

tmr's school , dread ._.

Tmr's even week , super long day in school .

I hope secondary school life pass faster .

Alright , my eyes are closing soon , feeling exhausted and tired .

B's out on streets , stupid :)

Shall see him one of these days , hopefully .

Haha , shall stop here .

K byeeeeeee

PSPS ; 5 more days to the 25th , luv yawwwwwwwwwww :B

2009-08-01T04:17:00.000-07:00

I'm addicted to this old song , named wo de xin li zhi you ni mei you ta .
I'm getting crazy over this song .
& the lyrics is constantly repeating on my mind .
Mad mad mad . haha .
As usual , I'm busy on weekends .
Will try to update if i'm freee .
B's missing nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww :`(
gotta catch my beauty sleep earlier today , tmr morning shift
K byebyeeeeeeeeeeee

2009-07-30T02:44:00.000-07:00

I'm very bored & sleepy now .
Just finished uploading precious into my ipod baby .
Nice afternoon spent .
Home @ 4.30pm , how nice .
Tmr's a shorter day , Wont be attending social studies lesson .
Work followed , exhausted i predict .
K , off to find more stuffs to download inside my ipod baby .
B's out now , off for an interview afterwards .
Good luck Baby ! love you & see youuuuu tmrrrrrrr .
K bye

2009-07-29T03:10:00.000-07:00

Posting on ipod baby now .
Am lazy to on my com to surf th net .
Haha , today's lessons were still manageable,
But then , what worry me most is my d&t.
I've still some more to finish , urgh
Ok , tmr's a long day . How nice.
I miss B . Sighs
Shall see him on fri then. Haha

K , i'll update til here . I'm sleepy
Will update more if i'm free .
K , byeeeeeeee :)

2009-07-28T06:03:00.000-07:00

I am extremely happy today .
There are many reasons for that .
1 . I get to see my beloved boyf .
2 . School ended the earliest today , which is 2.45pm .
3 . I got to eat thai express w B .
4 . My D&T is half-way done ^^
haha , B's forever nice . thumbs up !
Dinner @ thai expess , was more than perfect .
Went to arcade for games , stayed thr til 7.45pm .
Headed to the mall to get some food for B's mom .
Home sweet home aft that , thanks B for being such a wonderful boy ^^
I love you , deeply as always :)

Oh wells , Maybe i cant get to see B til friday .
Let's just hope this will not drift us apart .
Absence makes the heart grow founder , let it remain this :)
K , nice tuesday spent . Great !
Now , I've got to start my mugging already .
I promised B tmr , I swear tmr I will .
I'm gg to start on chemistry first .
& I hope i can get my D&T done asap .
Now , i finally feels tht i do have some hope for my D&T .
& yes , form teacher showed us the requirements for some courses in poly .
As usual , I need my 10 pointers :(
Tell me how to get such perfect scores? I really wondered .
Urgh , I shall not waste anymore time nagging here .
I will kick my ass off my study table to mug tmr .
I'll fulfil B's wish by studying hard .
I give you my word , I will .
Love you & thanks for giving me the strength to carry on .
:)

PSPS ; when love becomes strong ,

2009-07-27T04:22:00.000-07:00

I'm just back home .
Quite a long day in school .
School ended @ 4.15pm . My goodness .
Tmr's a much better one as we'll be released at 2.45pm . Good !
This means , I can get to see B . Thumbs up .
B's currently @ maurice's house playing his dumb game ._.
Now i know what my dearest baby cant live without .
It's his com , max tune , facebook & internet explorer plus dragonica .
Not me ley , sad uh? Haha .
Oh wells , tht's how singapore typical guys are .
HAHA , but then , I know i've got a fantastic boyf! :)
teeheee , super love him still although he can live w/o meeee :(
Alright , I looked forward to end school faster tmr .
See you tmr , B .

Lessons ended , headed off to hg mall w my girls .
As usual , never ending laughters .
I love them plenty .
Long john for dinner , was Great .
Went into cotton on to shop , headed home aft everything .
Fantastic day w them :)
& yes , 15 of august ! Movie date w them ^^
Oh well , I've got nothing to blog already .
Off to facebook & twitter , goodbyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee .

PSPS ; I miss baby ley :`(

2009-07-26T04:01:00.000-07:00

I am super pissed off now .
I cant understand why some people are so busybody .
Why cant they just keep thinga to themselves?
Knn , I am angry to the extreme .
I feel like killing whoever tht leaks out tht info .
Screwed it , urgh

K , enough of my rants .
I see no point getting angry since it had happened .
Whatever it is , tmr's monday blues again .
Which means , school time , it's also equals to extra lessons ,
thus conclusion , home @5pm , How fantastic .
I got to start mugging , I sense tht i needa retake my chinese O's .
I feel as if i've lost my ace .
Or should i say , i've lost it? I wondered .
Til then , i think i gotta concentate on my other subs too .
Right now , nothing seemed to be gg through my mind .
I kept cursing whoever tht told my mom all those stuffs .
I curse he/she to live shorter for 10 years .
I curse his/her pets to die tmr .
I curse he/she to be down on luck for as long as they live .
Screwed , cant help but to feel aggitated and angry .
Imagine you were being questioned right aft you reached home?
& hell , I swear it arent good at all .

I just wish i'm 21 now .
4 More years , endure .
If by then , I'm still w B , i'll move out .
Yes , i will for sure .
I meant buy a house , settle down w B .
I'll have much more peace .
Ok , I must be day-dreaming away .
But then , i just hope one day it came true .
Anyway , I realised tht things aren't fine as i thought it'll turn out to be .
I always thought , since things happened so long ago ,
one will not hold it to heart and remember it for long .
But then , i was proven wrong today .
I didnt know tht mom's still the same .
The way she talked to me and questioned me just now ,
made me feel as though she's questioning some murderers out there .
I swear she's still the same , she dig out my past to talk about just now .
She suck , really .
I always thought , she've forgiven and forget .
But i was wrong , totally wrong .
I dont know i should feel either .
But what i wish to do now is to study hard , prove her wrong .
& then , move out once i'm 21 .
I had enough , really enough .
Today , I've seen through what's really on her mind .
& She really broke my heart into pieces .
I dont care if she's my mom or whateverso ,
I personally thinks tht if one kept thinking of the past mistakes ,
I see no point in making any efforts to change or whateverso .
I may seem like an unfilial child here ,
Just let it be , I dont need anyone comments on this .
It's my own business .

K , On a slightly happier note ,
I just finished talking with my beloved B .
As usual , he's always the best of the best .
I meant really , i'm not kidding .
Whenever i'm down , i'm sad , i'm moody ,
He'll be the one tht will always be there &
bring a smile on me .
Not my own family , seriously .
He may seemed stubbon at times , and tends to make me upset and angry ,
But i know in my heart , he's always my favourite boy for this 17 years .
I'm glad telling him what happened just now .
& i'm very ease tht he gave me an acceptable answer .
He said he's willing to wait for 3 months .
I'm more happy than anything , I'm speechless .
I love you , from my bottom of my heart .
I know it'll be hard on you this 3 months , bear w it B .
I promise , I'll be back for you 24/7 aft tht .
Thanks for everything all this while ,
Once again , I love you , deep from my bottom of heart .

2009-07-25T08:26:00.000-07:00

Finally iPod baby allows me to
Blog. Haha . Just finished talking w baby.
Am turning in soon ,
Goodnight once again .

2009-07-25T07:55:00.000-07:00

Blogger's abit alright now .
Ok , been busy with life lately .
Content w life as husband fetches me from work ,
dinner tgt , joys&laughter .
I luv him most :)
K , Will update more if i'm free .
Goodnight .

2009-07-23T04:37:00.000-07:00

Pissed off with the blogger's posting layouts .
I dont know if it's my com problem or blogger .
What it is , it suck .
Oh well , I managed to reached home @7pm . How nice !
Lessons all the way til 4.15pm .
Headed off for dinner w baby yg & shi ting .
Chit chat alot , had fun off course .
B's busy with mahjong .
I'm bored to tears , shall wait til he gets to me .
I'm sorry B tht i couldn't accompany you this few days .
I promise , soon alright? Luv .

I think i'm over tired , over stressed .
Every day i woke up ,
1st thing tht came to my mind was ,
How can i dont go school today?
It used to be " yes! today got school "
But look , now i really dislike the thought of gg school .
Piles and piles of work to do ,
lessons after lessons .
I have no time to rest at all , not even doing my own revision .
I swear i can do better if th remedials are being cut off .
Really , it'll give us much more time to study alone .
If we're being so tied up by so many lessons ,
It'll all back fired .
& if you asked me what i've learnt so far ,
I'll honestly say , nothing .
I'm too tired to absorb any single thing , seriously .
I copy for the sake of copying .
I go remedials for th sake of marking the attendence .
Nothing goes through my mind at all .
I am really exhausted .
Dont you agree people?
Ok , but now th fact is ,
no matter how much i've said ,
the remedials are still gg to carry on .
& thus , i see no point in argueing .
So well , just let it be then .

I've not much to blog , i shall use my ipod baby to download stuffs later .
HAHA .
I luv my ipod baby so much ,
but the batt life dies so fast .
I wish i've got my freedom nowwwww .
Screwed every single thing .
& I'm not happy today , like obviously .
K bye

P/S ; I feel empty in my heart , somehow .

2009-07-22T01:24:00.000-07:00

blogger's still not ok , stupid .
I dont know what's wrong with the posting template , screwed .
Anyway , I had a good laugh during my chinese listening .
Not because the paper was easy ,
but instead , some random situation happened .
Now tht i'm posting this , I'm still laughing , haha
Dont get paranoid over what i'm talking about ,
It may not be what you think , so dont assume .
Oh well , chinese listening was ( fill in the blank) .
It's still manageable for me , although at parts , it tends to be abit tricky .
But overall , it's still manageable .
Now Chinese O's over , i sincerely hope i've got my ace .
Shall wait for my results on august then :)

Alright , now the sad news .
I'm told tht we're not able to skip any remedials .
Now i guess , I'll just attend it .
But this means , i can no longer sees B .
Lessons end mostly at 5pm . Nice one .
I see no help , shall seek Mom's advice after she returns home .
Alright , i guess i just got to scarifies my love for my studies .
3 more months only , Hopefully B will wait .
I've no choice either , this is the only path i think .
Alright , I'm going mad over studies & remedials .
This suck , really .

I've not much to blog , B's out .
I intended to stay at home today .
So sorry Kahwee :(
Yes , tmr's another long day .
4.15pm , How great .
I feel like killing myself straight because ,
I did nothing for studies & O's so near .
I'm afraid , Really .
I'm not going to say much here .
Will update more if i'm free .
K bye

PSPS ; I guess i've done my best this time round .
Idontknowwhyimsomoodytoday

2009-07-21T03:19:00.000-07:00

I dont know what's wrong with blogger .
It seemed so weird to me with messy layouts , shit .
I'm here blogging partly because B kept complaining tht I seldom update my blog .
So , yes i'm updating it right now ;)

Shall kept my post short today .
Because it's hard for me to type w such messy layouts , scrwed .
I hate blogger at times , urgh
Oh wells , had sushi at punggol plaza with my girls & B .
Headed home 1st & B's already at my house waiting . Perfect !
Had a really full and now i'm bloated , I meant real bloated .
Same goes for them , haha
Had lots of fun gathering and chatting tgt .
I luv them most, not forgetting yi fang , cassandra sim , laura & cassandra lee .
They had been part of my life , truly .
& true enough , they're the ones tht stand by me through ups & downs .
I swear upon my life , they're the best of the best .
Headed home w B aft sushi . Same goes for the rest .
I am happy today , indeed ^^

Alright , tmr's school again .
2 more days to friday :(
O levels chinese listening tmr ,
Babes/hunks , do remember to bring along IC and entry proof ^^
All the best to all of you who're taking th papers .
Meanwhile , I hope i'll do well for my chinese .
Alright , B's on his way home now .
I'm gg to play my ipod baby aft he had charged for me ^^ Great !
Shall sleep early tonight , Am restless .
K, will update tmr if possible .

PSPS ; I dont like those attitude at times , really .

2009-07-18T18:32:00.001-07:00

Finally i'm back to blog , another apology my dear readers .
I'll try to blog often , i promised .
I'm busy with studies , schools , remedials & nothing else .
I hardly even have time for B either , i swear .
This kind of hectic schedules suck seriously .
2 more months , endure , persist .
I've done nothing much for studies , i meant really .
No intensive mugging at home , i'm deadbeat .
I think school's extra lessons is screwing me up alot .
Til the extend tht it not only didn't help , but instead , worsen it .
You see , everyday lessons end at 5pm .
Reached home = 6.30pm .
Shower = 7pm .
Dinner = 7.30pm .
2.5 hours to study? What about homework at times? Not enough time seriously .
Not tht i'm trying to say tht intensive remedials are some bad things .
But then , when those schedules are packed like hell ,
It'll cause the whole situation to worsen .
I hope lessons would lessen abit , it'll help really .
Now , i'm getting sick and tired everytime i open any of my books .
Tmr's another long day in school .
I am not looking forward to school anymore .
School = remedials = stress = tired = restless = dead .
I hope some kind souls would save me ._.

Alright , cast aside studies , I'm sick to even talked about it anymore .
Mid year results was really " flying colours "
I admit i didn't studied much , or should i say i didnt study .
I expected such outcomes .
I passed only POA , i'm serious.
The rest either i flung badly or a few more marks to my passes .
I need help in history and maths badly , i meant badly , real badly .
At times i really dont know how to carry on anymore .
If i were to carry such thinkings for my O's ,
I swear i'll just screwed my entire papers , sigh
I'm lack of motivation or should i put it across as , I lost motivation to study .
I'm caught in the middle whereby , i dont know how should i start , urgh
Ok , enough .

On a lighter note , ytd was a well-spent day w my beloved B .
I know he's the best , always the best .
He can really bring me happiness whenever i'm with him .
Be it whether i'm down , he'll have his ways to cheer me up .
Life's wonderful with him & yes , i'm contented w life .
Mom says i might marry him in future , this made me laugh hard ^^
If B's reading this , he'll sure go GAGA , like mad only .
& He caught me a real bloody cute baby duck ytd .
& I swear he's mad over tht toy til the extend tht he sort of treat it as his son .
He's cute , for sure . I meant in my eyes he is .
Nothing can describe how much i love him , not a single word or phrase . Wonderful!
Alright , shall not praise him much or else he'll go GAGA again ._.
Oh well , he's always my happy pill , Luv to the max
Hope i'll get to see him more despite my long schedules in school .
K done w B ^^

& yes , before i forget , i remembered someone commented on my blog asking me this .
" are you and shuxian still friends? "
Oh well , firstly , I'm not trying to cause trouble here again .
I'm here to reply to this person in a proper manner .
- We used to be friends . We used only . That's all i have for you ^^
Alright , nothing much practically , just find it funny tht til now ,
people are still asking all this questions .
But then , no harm too ^^
I'm free to entertain all doubts babes/hunks :)
Oh wells , I'm off to tweeteeeer & faceboooook !
K bye

" Love makes me blind "

2009-07-18T18:32:00.000-07:00

I'm to happy til i couldn't sleep & thus ,
ended up waking so early . haha .
Glad tht B's meeting me at my house here . Thumbs up! :)
I ought to go bath soon . Meeting B @ 11.30am sharp .
K bye

2009-07-18T05:43:00.000-07:00

Once again , I neglected my blog just because of my Ipod baby .
So sorry readers .
It's gg to be a short post today .
I'm gg to do my nails right after i blogged . haha .
Nothing much practically . Spent my days either w B , work or school .
Life's Great with me so far .
Am gg to hit town tmr w B and his co .
Movie and lunch plus dinner date , luv man :)
Alright , B's out on streets now .
Am so bloody gg to kill him tmr , haha
Okay , will blog when i'm free again .
Motivate me by clicking on my nuffnang ads . hehe ^^
K bye

i saw strawberry shortcake van this morning while i'm on the way to work ,

I thought of you ,

I laughed so hard right inside my heart .

& It's making me laugh my ass off now . HAHA .

Nice entertainment of the day ^^

P/S ; a moment like this ^^

2009-07-14T03:13:00.000-07:00

Sorry readers , i've been busy with my ipod baby .
So , i've neglected my blog for 2 days .
I am here blogging because my Ipod baby die on me .
Batt went flat , i meant bloody flat .
I've nothing to do at this moment , so i decided to come blogging .
I somehow regretted buying this ipod baby .
not because ipod touch arent good , but instead ,
I chance upon a pink damn holyshit chio laptop .
How i wish it'll be purple instead . but then , it looks good in pink too .
& it's obviously cheap like shit ._.
like only 700bucks , handy and chio , worth it annot? OBVIOUSLY .
If only i didnt get my ipod touch baby ,
Tht damn chio laptop would be at my home now .
Now , i've gotta start saving like mad again .
But then , i guess it'll take me a month to save . Oh well , by then ,
I think tht laptop's gone :(
Urgh , screwed .

B's at bbc now , super boring .
I'll be able to meet him tmr , like finally .
Super happy today because i finally did something meaningful in my entire D&T lessons .
Even james tan praised me! woooo .
Finally got my so called " circles" done , happy tht it looked chio .
Gotta move on tmr , pray hard he dont keep me back .
Oh wells , sad news come now .
I've got back my paper 2 english paper , was holy atrocious i tell you .
The whole sec 5 classes did badly , 16 was the highest if i'm not wrong .
It's upon 25 marks ._.
I think i screwed all my papers badly , even for history .
The only paper i did holy alright was my social studies paper .
How i wish my history would be better , urghs .
Alright , 3 more months , endure !
I am gg to work hard . yes , i will with determination .
Now , i'm gg to settle my ipod baby stuffs & make it look chio-er
alright , will blog after i'm done with .
k bye

2009-07-11T04:26:00.001-07:00

I added new songs to my play list .
The first song kept repeating on my mind .
I dont know why , it seemed so emotional to me though .
Oh wells , B's out to town , I just reached home not long ago .
Exhausted as usual , Sleepy too .
Tmr morning shift again , kill me someone .
Most probably wont get to see B .
I realised i've been thinking about alot of stuffs this few days .
I wondered why too .
When i'm thinking about those stuffs & the 1st song is being played ,
You can see me daze blankly in the air .
Urgh , kill me kill me .
Screwed , monday school again .
I want to study hard , earn lots of money , be a rich tai tai in the future .
I got nothing much to post today .
I'm very happy tht i've got the service excellence award .
HAHAHA , i can pursue a diploma in F&B ley . WOW :O
but sadly , i'm not keen to work in F&B in future ;`(
haha , alrights , I'm off to facebook and tweeeeter .
K bye

PS ; please be back on the track .

2009-07-10T09:07:00.000-07:00

Knn , nowsaday , bitches out there love to get hook w guys tht got girlf .

I seriously dont know why either .

Cant they just get themselves some guys who're available?

I despise them , I named them bitch or bitch(es) .

Whathefuck is wrong with their thinkings?

Nabeh , I seriously hope something can brain wash them .

Urgh , some bitch out there is trying to mess w my boy .

Now , you watch out seriously .

I curse you with all my life and soul .

You better not go to the extend or else i'll go to my extreme .

I swear , You've already succeeded getting out of my nerves .

I've been tolerating you this bitch for quite some time .

You better know your limits .

You better know where you stands .

If you're just my boyf friend , behave like one .

Dont go to the extreme i tell you .

Saw tht? you better dont go over my limits okay .

I feel like stepping you off and kicking you off dead .

Fuck you bitch , you better know he's my boyf .

Oh i almost forget , you know he's my boyf .

so , you better stop clinging onto him .

I'll make your life miserable , stupid sour plum .

Just a piece of shit .

Now i know what exactly caused me to tear , to get angry and upset w B .

Stupid lame shit bitch .

I dont think i ought to get jealous over her either .

I know B loves me , hahaha .

I still cant resist the temptation to browse into B's phone .

I browsed though it , it dosent affect me like previously .

Maybe , just maybe I've understood .

Or perhaps , You can say i'm used to it already .

I understands tht B have girl friends too .

I cannot be selfish either , oh well .

Falling in love is so hard , especially when you got to really trust .

haha , i seemed crappy here , oh whatever .

K la K la , enough of rantings .

I cursed those girls who flirt w my boyf to die faster .

I'm not being mean , I'm just being fair here .

Seriously .

Alright , back from work , exhausted .

Tmr morning shift as usual .

sianzxzxzx ._.

B's out on street , slaps him ^^

& I've a special post for him . heheh

There you go ,

Baby , Sometimes i know i'm super unreasonable .

sorry , but i have to tell you tht ,

all girls are super easy to get jealous .

but then , no worries baby , I do have trust in you .

I believe you hold your words , you'll be faithful .

I'm glad tht after all incidents had happened ,

you seemed to be more caring and loving .

I just want to let you know , I'm not upset or whatever aft i read those msgs .

I'm not feeling anything , i'm still fine .

So , yeah baby dont worry alright?

You know i loves you no matter what .

& i'll see you soon :)

PS ; love is hard , especially when you got to trust .

2009-07-08T03:26:00.001-07:00

We fight , we quarrel .
We ended off loving each other more .
Sorry baby , i know i shouldnt have such thinkings .
I know i'm foolish . It hurts me to see you sad really .
I swear i'll never want you to feel sad or whateverso .
I want you to be the happiest man on earth .
I always told myself this ,
" even if i'm unhappy , i'll still want my boyf to be the happiest boy on earth "
I want simply nothing , all i want is a smile on your face .
I love you for everything , and i really meant every single thing .
I thanked you for being so patient w me .
Now tht everything's sunshine over rain ,
I hope this will be the last time we're feeling so sad .
You know i'll love you no matter what .
and i'll see you tomorrow baby .
Oh yes , thanks for such a wonderful day today! luv ya .

O lvls chinese was not bad .
I screwed up my passage abit , haha .
Conversation was much easier . I hope i'll get my distinction still .
Alrights , i'm off to chat w mom and dad .
B's on the way home now , hehe
i'm so happy today , hope everyday is today .
xoxo .

2009-07-08T03:26:00.000-07:00

Finally , Finally i've unleash everything out .

I know i shouldn't have cried in front of you ,

But i just cant helped . I dont know why .

I tried my very very very best to hold on to my tears &

let it all out only when i'm alone at home .

But it doesn't seemed to happen .

I dont know why i'm feeling this way , i've sort of lost my sense of secure from you .

You said tht when i sees those msgs , I'll get angry .

But have you thought it across tht ,

It do bothers me when you're keeping it to yourself?

Let me tell you this, For once i put my 100% trust in you .

But at times , you crash it all down by yourself .

I tried to give in many many times , I bear w every single thing .

I'm not implying to say tht i'm not happy w you.

but , look , you're my boyf , someone who i trusted more than anyone ,

someone who i loved so much w my heart .

Yet so many times , you disappoint me , you hurt me , you made me upset .

I bear , i tolerate .

I asked myself have i done my part well enough as a girlf ?

I dont know , i guess i've not done well enough ,

tht is maybe why you're treating me in this manner .

I know i'm unreasonable at times , i apologised .

You always said tht i dont understands you , I admit i dont .

I dont know why , why why exactly this is happening .

we used to be happy , we used .

but now , i always ended up with tears on bed .

Sometimes w/o you knowing .

call me foolish , call me silly . Aft all these ,

It had never once change my heart .

NEVER , I swear upon my life .

I still love you as much as i did previously .

All i ask for is to be faithful , treat me better , cherish me .

Is tht very diffcult? Call me selfish or whateverso .

I've longed prepared for this day to arrive .

Now tht it had all happened , all i can say is ,

I gotta move on , with or without you .

It pains me so much , really .

I couldnt bring myself to explain how much it hurts .

I'm still tearing as i'm blogging this .

Tell me why issit so hard to treat me better?

I seriously dont understand why .

To think tht i always thought you're the best of the best ,

Now you've proven me wrong .

I dont know how else to go .

You lead the way , i respect you .

I am too upset for anything now ,

I wont be replying smses , calls etc .

Off to bath & reflect . k bye

PSPS ; As mentioned , if time were to rewind .....

2009-07-06T23:02:00.001-07:00

Is it good to fall in love? I wondered .

I'm not very happy today .

I dont want to elaborate any further .

Back from school , nothing much practically .

Infact , i'm looking forward to see B today .

Okay , neverminds , forget it .

I doubt i'll be able to see him this week , long schedules waiting for me .

Oh wells , I guess it dosent matters .

Anyway , happy 24 anniversary .

You know i'll always love you .

No matter rain or shine .

K bye

Ronald : Thanks for the wishings .
Hope everything's better now for you and barney .
I'll see you soon .

PS ; If time were to rewind ........